I took Adderall; I got a prescription for Adderall. To say nothing of having what her heart truly wants: satisfying work. We went for a drink and played some bar trivia. I certainly did not have the perspective to see the unthinkable intimidation involved in making sexual advances on someone so far down the totem pole at the workplace. All of that was easier than saying no thanks, and briefer than accompanying him to Santa Barbara, which was his original request. What it looks like is this: a coercive, oppressive power imbalance in which saying yes is not the alternative to saying no.
Alexa. Age: 25.
But a bad kind of love that I should never have entertained and only did because I was some opportunistic Tracy Flick type, unprincipled and dishonest and not good enough to be taken seriously for her robust intelligence and peerless hard work.
Margot. Age: 20.
There is no such thing, there is no such woman. I had daily recurring nightmares that Buffalo Bill from Silence of the Lambs — the guy who keeps women in a pit for a week before turning them into a human skin suit — was trying to break into my sublet in Santa Monica. All of that was easier than saying no thanks, and briefer than accompanying him to Santa Barbara, which was his original request.